Driving away is harder than running.
Running allows the time to pass slower. The destination is farther. The taste of salt lasts longer on red sunburnt lips.
But to slam the door on an old Jeep and take off is too much momentum too soon, especially for something that you wish would hang in the late summer air forever.
It is not so much of a road as a string. Something that connects something else, ties it together for safe keeping; at least until the knot becomes loose over time and the string breaks into threads as thin as the friendships that could once sink ships and while you miss that body, that laugh, those shoes, that one hair that never stayed in place as much as he tried, you can't miss it because it forces that to surface. It forces you to acknowledge the fact that there are others like me. You were another blink of those eyes that once cried for you, another sunset that he can watch out his window every evening at 7:38 (or 6:38 when the light grows shorter). You are a grain of sand on that beach in Hermosa and she's there with her toes in the ocean and her short blonde hair not free enough to be carried in the wind.
You're not sad.
You don't miss it.
You don't miss the faded almost-white denim and the feet soft from sand.
You don't miss
You don't miss it.
You don't miss that road, the string that held your hair back from the harsh wind and the string that held your hand to his.
You're not sad.
